Thursday, October 14, 2010

Skinny bitch.*

Hi. I'm Katelin.

I'm 26 years old, 5'9" and 158 pounds (give or take, it's been a while since I've been on a scale) and my jeans are a size 10.

Most days I try to embrace these features, I applaud these features, it's who I am, a healthy young woman. A woman with curves and boobs and an ass. But then there are other days, other days when a size 10 doesn't feel so good or even healthy and when my weight seems to have migrated only to my stomach and my jeans feel a little snug. Those are the days I dread, those are the days when I say I'm going to start working out again and stop eating so much cheese and drinking so much wine. And it's always on those days where I see an article like this to make me feel like a size 10 isn't normal after all, it's rather "plus size."

Lately I've been having some of the other days. But I can't complain about it or whine because all I have to do is wake up early, work out on the Wii or go walking with my mom after work and maybe cut back on the crap food and I'd be okay again, I'd feel like I did six months. It's the other days that remind me I have to be the one to change myself, to be the Loser to embrace the Me-Over and get serious.

So here's to hoping to more of the every days and not the other days and making an effort to love the woman I am.

*no idea why I picked this title but I wrote it and it stuck.

happy thursday!


Crystal said...

As a mother of 2 girls I hope as they grow the standards will change. I would give my left leg to be a size 10 (who am I kidding I'd have to give both legs and arms to even get close LOL) and I would be super excited. No way is that plus size.

Amy --- Just A Titch said...

I know you've read along with my weight struggles and such but let me assure you, you're gorgeous and in NO WAY plus size. You are so pretty and you look HEALTHY.

Grace said...

You are beautiful. I hope you have lots of days where you feel that way and no more of the bad ones. xoxo

janet said...

You are gorgeous just the way you are. Maybe plus size=10 comes from living in LA?

Life is too short to not love yourself at Size 10, ya know?

Julie Q said...

Katelin you look gorgeous! And yeah, i honestly block out magazines when they show 'plus sizes' because its absolutely bonkers and there's no point in taking it too seriously. I saw that crystal wren article too and was like.. you got to be kidding me

AND you have about 5 inches on me and we're in teh same boat ;)

xoxo -your short, curvaceously fierce friend on the east coast

San said...

You know that the clothes sizes mean nothing, right?
Because I can wear anything between a size 3 and 7, depending on the brand/cut. It's ridiculous. So your size 10 is probably not a real size 10, and if so... so what?

You're gorgeous and definitely not a plus size, from what I can tell from the pictures.
You're height and weight really seem like a good match.

Lacey Bean said...

I love this post. And I love you. And lady, if you are "plus sized" then something is seriously wrong with our standards.

I also feel a lot like you do... even though I'm considered "skinny". In no way am I in shape, and I'm definitely what I'd refer to as a "fat" skinny person. But I know its only up to me to eat better, work out, and generally lead an active life to make the changes I want to see in myself.

I <3 you!

heidikins said...

I'm 27, 5'7" and 160. And I know exactly how you feel. :)

You're beautiful, my dear, inside and out.


Hillary said...

You're beautiful. But ... I know me saying that doesn't mean anything. I know that your perception of yourself is all that matters.

I hope your perception of yourself improves :) And I hope you don't have to give up cheese and wine.

Chelsea Talks Smack said...

I think you and your body are PERFECT. You're gorgeous, every inch my dear. I feel like no matter our size all of us girls have days like that, where we start overanalyzing, pinching, prodduign at the parts we dont like- but ultimately, you're perfectly created, and shaped the way you're meant to kind to yourself and here's to more days where you love all your bits, even the ones that you feel need "changing." :)

Ali said...

You're perfect. And I do mean that.

PS: Your post is titled "Skinny bitch" and Amy's post today is "Skinny Titch" and this entertains me a great deal.

Jamie said...

I've found that the only way to stave off thoughts of feeling inadequate is to remember that, no matter what, "measuring up" in more ways than one is not a possible feat.

Even celebrities are ripped apart. Even the celebrities we view in our eyes as being physically perfect are splayed across magazine covers with every inch and flaw either Photoshopped out or criticized to death. (Imagine how horrifyingly self-conscious they must feel. I don't think I'd trade my bad days where I'm the only audience to my flaws in exchange for the entire world dependent on my "perfection." No way, Jose.)

There's a sort of freedom (I believe) in knowing that we're never going to look like "ideals" because, half the time, THEY don't even look like that.

You're beautiful and fantastic. Curves. Boobs. Ass. Plus size. These aren't death sentences or nasty words. These are the marks of a life well lived and a life well enjoyed. Embrace.

alexa - cleveland's a plum said...

girlfriend you are one of the most happy and confident ladies i know, don't let anymore of those days of feeling plus sized ever happen again, cause you AREN'T.


Andrea said...

Honestly, Katelin, per your height and weight above, I (although I'm not expert) am certain you're not overweight. And, by looking at you, I know that your body is beautiful. YOU are beautiful. You are lovely, proportionate, statuesque, and womanly. Don't let any article make you think otherwise. I really hope that you have "Happy with my body" days everyday - although I know that's not realistic. You're beautiful.

Allison M. said...

well cheers to another 10!

(as I sit in my Gap Jean Leggings that I love in a size 10.)

Rachel said...

I agree with Alexa. You scream "confident" to me (via the internets, of course) and never change that! You are gorgeous!

Just keep on being you, lady! :)

Nora said...

One thing that annoys the crap out of me is the term plus size; is it necessary, really!?

But I know what you mean. I struggle with weight/body issues myself and it's just a constant struggle. When I work out, eat right and etc I feel amazing but it's such a 100% life commitment and the moment you stop it, well, the weight (at least for me) comes right back.

I'm learning to be more ok with who I am and what I look like. It takes time, but maybe we can get there?

And for the record, I think you're stunning and gorgeous.

Jessica (Bayjb) said...

Girlfriend I am right there with you and one size up. I definitely know how you feel on those "off days" and hearing magazines classify 10 as a plus size and stores say they don't carry them, that's just insane.

sarah marie p said...

Had to chime in and say that just like the title of your blog -- you are gorgeous! From your curly hair down to those footsteps!

You are not plus sized -- but even if you were, who cares! "Plus sized" are just words ... and the modeling industry is obviously quite silly and makes up its own ridiculous rules!

Love, another 5'9" girl!